climbing tru love

who can understand my situation now?
who can understand my feelings now?
where the one you love
looks like don't even care you any more?
where the one you love
doesn't bother to put you in their first place any more?
where the one you love
does not even try to comfort you any more?

heart pains
floppy emotions
i want to bare these
and overcome the gap between us
i want to break the walls
and let her know 
no matter how pain for me it is
i would hold onto our love

love is not a game
if you fall in love deeply to a person
you have to treasure it
you have to be strong for her
you have to be right for her
you have to be firm for her

no doubts, no regrets
no lusts, no lies,
no fake, but truth

as truth between us
will only bond us
and i know she is the one
and my heart deeply knows it
how pain is it to leave her?
no... i won't want to leave her
i would not want her to leave me too
i would not let things to let her feel hurt any more
although my passed actions did
although she said she cannot continue any more
but when she sees me
her love for me from the heart comes out again
because deep down inside
she still loves me right?
as two of us meets
our thoughts is always just empty
and our heart is always "one"

I love her
I miss her
always

........

messages that indicate a smile

just so short and all

what does it means?

it feels just like

I should not disturb

I should just leave it

I should not reply

so cold eh

although it hurts

but i know it doesn't mean that

just that..

i know she got nothing to say

:')

有一个男人

有一个男人

从前他不懂什么是爱情

看见情侣就想学

就乱去爱

分了一个

又来一个

被伤了

又换一个

到有一天

他已经麻木

不懂真爱

伤了其他人

到对方分手

也没一回事了

到一个地步

不想伤人

不想伤自己

停了所谓的爱情

几年了

直到有一天

她出现了

心里感到好特别

仿佛没爱过这样

那种强烈的感觉

好想接近她

这男人问了自己心里

好久好久

终于很清楚

他爱上了她

好特别的感觉

真爱终于出现了

可是自己已经不完美

虽然追她

可是有时他会想

如果她知道了他的不完美

她可以接受他吗？

虽然好多第一次

已经不属她的了

可是其实也有很多

是他的第一次

第一次爱对了

第一次爱深了

第一次不玩了

第一次真心了

第一次付出了

第一次想通了

第一次会想到之间的未来

第一次会捉紧机会去见她

第一次那么勇敢地表白

第一次和女人面对面告白

第一次会为了爱情而改变

第一次追一位女生那么久

第一次那么痛当她分手

第一次不会放弃

也不会去找代替

第一次爱对了

这个男人

终于懂得爱情了...

就是她

我不可能放弃她的

还有一种男人

那个可以为她而坚持的

让她再相信爱

为爱情而改了不好的方面

让她可以再次接受我

她很难才相信爱

却让了给我

虽然是过去的事情搞砸了

可是我不想让她永远不再相信爱

因为我对她的爱没一次是假的

没有了她，我真的好像

失去了爱，我要坚持

就像那首歌

坚持到底

Is the best for her

"Actually there is no such thing, i simply say only"

:') of cause that is not truth

Coz although that guy scolded me like shyte

and i can't keep it and told her

and she keep asking me to tell

and i don't think telling her is good

well.. i have to do this..

i can't be selfish anymore

i know i love her...

but if she totally don't care about me

i would just like an air caring about her

and caring for the friendship of hers and that guy

hack it

since she is so cold to me

she won't feel the warmth i had for her

Its okay if she says i cheat her

Or lie to her

since now her mind about me is all lies

well..

there goes the hurtful times again

get denied by her

even the coldest times

but i still can't stop loving her :')

i only can love her secretly now...

Mama says

This morning really a break down for me again
I was so pump up to go to work
Suddenly my mom just ask me
What happened to you and her?


I was like .. er ... thinking" all of the time, now only ask mehh"
Oh well, and i told her everything
about what i had done
about my faults
and my mom say me:" guys always like dat" -.-
and i cried ... 


And she ask me so many questions,
about her and all
all i can say, is my fault..


and mom just said something,
Be patient on her, and don't give up
because all girls are sensitive
give her time and confirm her heart will cool down
and mom said:" If i don't love your father, and i have no patient,
I had already leave you all. So loving someone is about patient,
and giving in. Love the person have to accept all his/her bad.
Is not risk, but is what we called relationship.
No one relationship is always happy,
If there is, that is just a fairytale.
Every relationship has up and down,
and have to build, and have to help each other.
Have to solve problems, not to escape."


=(
Why mom suddenly tell me all these
When she already give up on me
and i would not give up on her...
I told mom that she said no more,
and cannot accept it anymore..

Mom just said:" continue to find her even it takes for years,
no mater how she discourage or denies,
you have to be consistent to show your heart,
girls mind will change at one level,
and that is the time she can accept you back."

Mom gave me so much hope ..
But .. is kinda sad .. i felt so down again
She treat me so cold now
treat me somebody that is nobody to her anymore
treat me like other flower guys..
mom also knew i changed..
but she dont believe me anymore
God, please take away the sadness inside me
i hate it.. it pulls me to the drain
stupid emotion, i wunna encounter you


When i pray and cried in car
God tells me:"
I gave you a wonderful emotion,
where very few people has it,
is to know people's feeling,
and to pray for them,
where this is called strong sense in spirit,
sense to create more things,
to let people know that God feels them~"


wow ~ 
alright then =)
I will prolong ~
I will go on ~
I love God
I love Mom
I love Dad
I love my sister
I love my family
I love my bro and sis in christ


I love her always =)


So i will listen to mama too
and never give up on the true love
and lastly she got tell me
"when 2 person never give up on each other,
that is called perfect relationship."


:')


because both are perfecting each other with love


oh well, i will pray and pray and pray ~
i know i have love so deep,
and i can't climb back out