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Wednesday, September 26, 2012

I Won't Give Up


I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up
Still looking up... 

I won't give up on us
God knows I'm tough, He knows
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up...

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

climbing tru love

who can understand my situation now?
who can understand my feelings now?
where the one you love
looks like don't even care you any more?
where the one you love
doesn't bother to put you in their first place any more?
where the one you love
does not even try to comfort you any more?

heart pains
floppy emotions
i want to bare these
and overcome the gap between us
i want to break the walls
and let her know 
no matter how pain for me it is
i would hold onto our love

love is not a game
if you fall in love deeply to a person
you have to treasure it
you have to be strong for her
you have to be right for her
you have to be firm for her

no doubts, no regrets
no lusts, no lies,
no fake, but truth

as truth between us
will only bond us
and i know she is the one
and my heart deeply knows it
how pain is it to leave her?
no... i won't want to leave her
i would not want her to leave me too
i would not let things to let her feel hurt any more
although my passed actions did
although she said she cannot continue any more
but when she sees me
her love for me from the heart comes out again
because deep down inside
she still loves me right?
as two of us meets

our thoughts is always just empty
and our heart is always "one"

I love her
I miss her

always

Thursday, April 19, 2012

........

messages that indicate a smile
just so short and all
what does it means?

it feels just like
I should not disturb
I should just leave it
I should not reply

so cold eh
although it hurts
but i know it doesn't mean that
just that..
i know she got nothing to say
:')

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

有一个男人

有一个男人
从前他不懂什么是爱情
看见情侣就想学
就乱去爱

分了一个
又来一个
被伤了
又换一个

到有一天
他已经麻木
不懂真爱
伤了其他人

到对方分手
也没一回事了

到一个地步
不想伤人
不想伤自己
停了所谓的爱情
几年了

直到有一天
出现了
心里感到好特别
仿佛没爱过这样
那种强烈的感觉
好想接近

这男人问了自己心里
好久好久
终于很清楚
他爱上了

好特别的感觉
真爱终于出现了

可是自己已经不完美
虽然追
可是有时他会想
如果知道了他的不完美
可以接受他吗?

虽然好多第一次
已经不属的了

可是其实也有很多
是他的第一次

第一次爱对了
第一次爱深了
第一次不玩了
第一次真心了
第一次付出了
第一次想通了

第一次会想到之间的未来
第一次会捉紧机会去见
第一次那么勇敢地表白
第一次和女人面对面告白
第一次会为了爱情而改变
第一次追一位女生那么久
第一次那么痛当她分手
第一次不会放弃
也不会去找代替

第一次爱对了

这个男人
终于懂得爱情了...

就是

Friday, April 6, 2012

我不可能放弃她的
还有一种男人
那个可以为她而坚持的
让她再相信爱
为爱情而改了不好的方面
让她可以再次接受我

她很难才相信爱
却让了给我
虽然是过去的事情搞砸了
可是我不想让她永远不再相信爱
因为我对她的爱没一次是假的

没有了她,我真的好像
失去了爱,我要坚持

就像那首歌
坚持到底

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

Is the best for her

"Actually there is no such thing, i simply say only"
:') of cause that is not truth
Coz although that guy scolded me like shyte
and i can't keep it and told her
and she keep asking me to tell
and i don't think telling her is good

well.. i have to do this..
i can't be selfish anymore
i know i love her...
but if she totally don't care about me
i would just like an air caring about her
and caring for the friendship of hers and that guy

hack it
since she is so cold to me
she won't feel the warmth i had for her
Its okay if she says i cheat her
Or lie to her
since now her mind about me is all lies

well..
there goes the hurtful times again
get denied by her
even the coldest times

but i still can't stop loving her :')
i only can love her secretly now...

Monday, April 2, 2012

Mama says

This morning really a break down for me again
I was so pump up to go to work
Suddenly my mom just ask me
What happened to you and her?


I was like .. er ... thinking" all of the time, now only ask mehh"
Oh well, and i told her everything
about what i had done
about my faults
and my mom say me:" guys always like dat" -.-
and i cried ... 



And she ask me so many questions,
about her and all
all i can say, is my fault..


and mom just said something,
Be patient on her, and don't give up
because all girls are sensitive
give her time and confirm her heart will cool down
and mom said:" If i don't love your father, and i have no patient,
I had already leave you all. So loving someone is about patient,
and giving in. Love the person have to accept all his/her bad.
Is not risk, but is what we called relationship.
No one relationship is always happy,

If there is, that is just a fairytale.
Every relationship has up and down,

and have to build, and have to help each other.
Have to solve problems, not to escape."


=(
Why mom suddenly tell me all these

When she already give up on me
and i would not give up on her...
I told mom that she said no more,
and cannot accept it anymore..

Mom just said:" continue to find her even it takes for years,

no mater how she discourage or denies,
you have to be consistent to show your heart,
girls mind will change at one level,
and that is the time she can accept you back."

Mom gave me so much hope ..

But .. is kinda sad .. i felt so down again
She treat me so cold now
treat me somebody that is nobody to her anymore
treat me like other flower guys..
mom also knew i changed..
but she dont believe me anymore
God, please take away the sadness inside me
i hate it.. it pulls me to the drain
stupid emotion, i wunna encounter you


When i pray and cried in car
God tells me:"
I gave you a wonderful emotion,
where very few people has it,
is to know people's feeling,
and to pray for them,
where this is called strong sense in spirit,
sense to create more things,
to let people know that God feels them~"


wow ~ 
alright then =)
I will prolong ~
I will go on ~
I love God
I love Mom
I love Dad
I love my sister
I love my family
I love my bro and sis in christ


I love her always =)


So i will listen to mama too
and never give up on the true love
and lastly she got tell me
"when 2 person never give up on each other,
that is called perfect relationship."


:')


because both are perfecting each other with love


oh well, i will pray and pray and pray ~
i know i have love so deep,
and i can't climb back out

Friday, March 30, 2012

怎么办?

怎么办?
我有不可以接近她
可是我还很爱她


怎么办?
她不要我一直找她
可是我做不到


怎么办?
她说她心接受不到
可是我不相信


怎么办?
她对我那么冷
可是我还是坚持


怎么办?
不想让她对我反感
可是我相信我的心意可以挽回她的心


怎么办?
她说我和其他男人一样
在我已经是不一样了过后


怎么办?
她这么快就放弃我
在我一直的都没放弃她


怎么办?
我找到了真爱
却还会有这样的下场


怎么办?
常常梦见她
她的笑容,她的吻,她的温暖,
她的温柔,她的眼,她的陪伴,
醒过来却是伤心的
好想永远睡去了


怎么办?
如果时间让她永远死心
而不是接受我的爱
怎么办?


我快发疯了


四月12号应该是我们开心见面的时候
现在是我建立信心的时候
我知道如果不去
她也不会要见我,我就没机会了
如果去,只有两个结局


最后见面...
或者是这次见面可以挽回我们所建立那么久的感情


我对这份感情很重要
因为她对我很重要
那么久才找到真爱
而真爱只发生一次
我不想放弃


怎么办?如果结局还是不好的
我该怎么办?

Thursday, March 29, 2012

By Strawberrytelle

Be with the one that makes you happy,
The one that makes you smile,
The one that makes you laugh,
And each day worthwhile.
Live life for that moment,
Try hard to make it last,
Because life is so short,
It goes by so fast.
So when you find love,
Don't let it slip away,
Hold it forever,
And cherish it each day.
As long as you are happy,
That is what you should do,
Love that someone and let them know,
Before your life is through.


:')

She is always the one 
The one i will be proud of to be with
the one that i can love correctly
the one that let me realized how to be a better man
the one that is worth fighting for
the one that is worth waiting for
the one that my heartbeat so fast
when i sees her every time
she is the one
i love so much

will she love me again... like last time?
only God knows .. :')

Monday, March 26, 2012

肋骨

说道肋骨..
昨天就被人踢到肋骨..
痛得滚在地上.. 哭了
难呼吸, 难坐直, 
只听到“AMOS 你OK吗?”
里面的右肋骨很痛


我却在好像要死的感觉,
想起了她...
想找她, 可是她都在忙吧..


过了不久,
好了一些,
很多人建议我去医院检查
我到给妈妈...
我就哭了...
不知为什么..
我好想告书妈妈..
我失恋了...
她一直问我我还好吗在外面..
我都瞒着说很好, 不用担心..
可是我还在骗自己..


回家了, 我又扮没事
他们还带我去医院
assunta 医院,
我外婆去世的医院..
从8 PM在那边...
到11.30PM才出院..
感谢主!
我没事~ 骨都好好的
没有内伤~






她对我越来越冷了..
真么办?

Saturday, March 24, 2012

往往

说了不找她,给她时间,
但往往手就是想问候她...
说了我会好好的, 不哭,
但往往想起她就会很怀念,
说了我不求她,给她空间,
但往往还想知道她还爱我吗..?
说了我会坚强的..
但往往有她在,是我最坚强的时候..


一个星期了... 很多情侣是会互相忍让,
原谅,宽恕,给机会...
只有我了.. 往往一直的呼求神,
给我们两在一个机会....


心往往会想念,她肯定我和说她很爱我的时候
脑往往会想起,每一次我们在一起的时刻
眼往往会相看,她的笑容和脸蛋
耳往往会想听,她的问候,笑声和关心
手往往会想摸,她的优雅的手
鼻往往会想闻,她的香,她的存在










我很爱她..非常的爱她..
当她说她爱我的时候
我是最高兴的.. 
有她的爱是我的福气
只是就是往往在灵很低谷时,
我做错了... 可我直接挽回
希望她可以接受我的改变
接受我对她的真心
不再想我所做错的事情...


没有了她.. 好像变了残缺


因为她就是我的肋骨.... 

What happened to me?

How come i found out myself like a beggar?
How come i became so annoying to her?
How come i am like a joker?
How come i sound like a honker?

I know i became like too much for you,
So i must think the very best for you,
I do not want it to end..
So, to avoid my annoyance to you,
I stay put and don't disturb you,
Until you finish filter,
And after the time had pass.

I must be strong =)
Stronger for her
And must be right
To be right for her

Used to have a boring life
until i met her
A girl that colored me so much
And the only girl that changes me
And the only girl that i had chased for so long
love for so long
and so deep

I won't beg her
I won't do anything stupid
She is the person..
persistent, strong, confident,
which i love so much

Her protection of her own self,
Her thoughts, actions, decisions,
Is always what i has respected,

It is better to hurt myself,
rather than hurting her..
is all because i love her :')

I never want to destroy her life
How come this thing happened?
Which i am the one whom made her trust in love,
And now i am the one destroy her trust in love.

I am so sorry to her
How i wish it does not happened..
and we will now still be sweet to each other,
and April should be the day we spent the longest time together..
But.. it won't be happening ...

If April i go there,
Will she really ignore me?
Will she not use her heart to see me?
Will she don't care me alone there?

I am really afraid of loneliness,
And is a foreign place for me,
With strangers all around,
I hope at least...
She will still come and meet me,
as a friend also can...

If i really go there and she do not care,
I think... I would rather... can i say this?
i would rather die hanging in the room @.@
Because this means she totally have no heart for me anymore

Oh well, is all predictions now..
Used to be confirmation,
But all my thoughts...
I tried to tell her now..
She will just treat it as a wind..
Nevermind =)

Time...
Time is precious..
So is she to me =)

And because she is precious to me too
I can wait for time ~

I can't tell her this already since she ask me don't flirt with her =(
So, without breaking this promise i made to her,
I will say it here that .. i love her, Wei Yen only ~ =)

Thanks Blog .. for listening to me..
I became crazy already ..
who can lobotomize me? - when everything goes worst..
So that i would not remember anything again
Although includes my whole life and families
I would rather became stupid in mental hospital
than feeling regret for my life that i had made a wrong move behind her that time ='(

Friday, March 23, 2012

my heart...

Because of that incident, i became back to blogging,
no one else to tell to how i feel,
except God, myself, and .... her,
This is what my heart wants to say to her..

Sorry, please forgive me all my past..
I miss you so much, and now even more..
because you have became so cold to me,
worst than before...
I need back your warm...
I need back your smiles...
I need back your replies...
I need back your care...
I need back your sampatness...
I need back your voice...
I need back your hand...
I need back your hug...
I need back your accompany...
I need back your kiss...
I need back you ....

I need back ... your heart ...

I can't stand anymore to see you so sad and still angry ...
I know i did a mistake...
And I had changed on that time...
I know you hate it.. my flirty times...
I know how much you hate it...
I know my wrongs... I should have only flirt to you...
I've changed... so please let me only flirt to you..

Please try hard to forgive me and don't hate me...
I don't want.. I cannot take it.. i am too sad to get separate with you..
Please Wei Yen's heart, come back to me =(
Please Wei Yen's heart, soften back to me ...
Please Wei Yen's heart, love me back ....
Please Wei Yen's heart, feel back the good me ...

I know is so hard to get back right now...
But i will still try, if she also will try her best..
She said she will try, so please Wei Yen's heart..
I need you back ... 
I need you back ...



I need you ... i want to love you
I want to love you with all the right way
I want to love you with all my heart
And never hurt your heart again
And would never destroy it again







I am so tired.. but i cannot let go...
I still will try hard ...
to reach back her heart ...







I cannot afford to loose her =(
she is my very best
my heart hurts more than my other part of body
when her heart is dead now...

Oh Lord,
Please revive her heart back... :')
... Amen

















I love you deeply

Thursday, March 22, 2012

To all guys =)

Hello boys or guys and my friends,
I would like to share to everyone,
that
If you truly found the one you love so much,
the one you cherish so much,
the one you would not bored of,
the one that your heart says,
Yes, this is the only one.

Please do not hurt her,
Please protect her,
and never ever do any stupid things,
or anything that could destroy the trust,
Please put her as your important person.
Please let her be the one you would only,
flirt with, date with, look at it, and everything..

I had made a mistake,
and i had changed and stop,
I know doing bad things behind her is not right,
although i am chasing her,
I regret a lot for doing this..
So hard to get her,
and just a blink,
It is destroyed between the trust.

When she says is over,
I felt my worst in my life,
because i had never love a person so much like her before,
So hard to get her opened fully up to me,
And trust me totally,
yet, my mistake destroy this relationship,

In my life, i had never cried so much like this time before,
Go anywhere, her shadow appear every where,
and i cried everywhere ...
I tried to make it up.. so hard
at last she says ok, and give me once last chance,

but i know it is hard to be normal again,
so i will still never give up,
to rebuild this relationship between us,
I love her so much
I made her believe in love,
And her first boyfriend,
first kiss, first hand hold, first hug
is from me.

If we became back to normal again,
I will always the guy she would trust and love =)

Friends, please Cherish your love ones..

Please don't do the mistake i had done,
it hurts the other half and also yourself,

I will keep fighting, never give up =')
to be a better man for her

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

=')

i won't ever repeat the same thing again
i will repair and build back the trust
thx God i have one last chance from her
i won't do anything stupid to hurt her any more
as my heart is totally destroy without her

Love is not a game, Love is needed to be protect
To guide, to support, To be cautious for each other

I never cried for so much for a girl
and she is the only one
:')

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

我以为我会好的...

我跟她说,我会坚强的,
我也以为,跟同学出去我会比较好...
可是.. 没那么容易...

到了1u .. 我走到哪里...
她就浮浮的出现在我面前...
我就哭了.. 在广场...
朋友都没看到..
因为我走在前面...

那些从对面走过我的,
都看见了...

看到情侣,我也默默的哭了..
站在电子梯子,我也哭了...
看到情侣在斗彼此开心,我也哭了...

我... 第一次在外面哭了那么多...
看见衣服店,我也哭了...
看见情侣坐在餐厅面对面.. 我也哭了

我的朋友,一直问我为什么走到那么快..
其实我都不想让他们看见我这样子...

我很爱她.. 我爱和她在一起的日子..
现在.. 因为我的错误.. 伤了她的心..
让她没办法接受我...

我该真么办...? 同学都知道我的一举一动很奇怪...
我的情绪,瞒不了人人..

吃饱了过后.. 各自各散...
我都在忍着走回去车..
没想到.. 进了车子,大哭一场...
帮带也哭,开车也哭...
踏油也哭.. 停了一下又在哭...

我舍不得她... 她一直的浮现在车子里...
我太爱她.. 我很想一直告诉她我对她是真心的..
让她在相信我...

开车一半,又大哭一张...
哭喊了,哭干了,哭哑了...
我人生中没哭过那么久...
哭到两三次差点被车撞..
喊了好多次:“为什么!为什么!??
为什么当我好好爱一个女子,我还会做错伤了她?!!
我很不配..可是我放不了她.... 神啊,帮帮我可以吗!?
我知道我会有报应,可是不要那她走好吗!!!!!!!!?????
我好痛!!! 痛......
如果她原谅我了,再次的接受我了,
我不会在让这种事情发生了,我求你神啊!!!
我不会再伤她的感情了!!!......“


哭到比小孩更惨.. 我需要她....

我很爱他... 因为是她.. 改变了我的人生..
让我变成了更好的男人...
神啊.. 求您.. 医治她的心..
我不求多了... 我... 痛就好了... 很痛....
又哭了... 我... 很.. 想.. 要.. 会.. 她..

希望时间会慢慢让她改变她对我的坏影响.....

Monday, March 12, 2012

i won't disappoint her ! =D

I know myself ~ and God knows me
My close bros and sis knows me
i do not care whoever outside there
wants to say bad about me
or tells "stories" which is wrong about me to her


but Thanks God
every time i pray for her
i love her more
and she open up to me more
she tells me everything
and shares with me

i will treasure her
always
always love her
and in Jesus
we can last long always

and thanks to God
and thanks to her
for putting trust on me

i will never ever disappoint her!

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